I woke up this morning with a strong need to dilute the convoluted mystery of women and nerds. Although the idea has been updated with great strides on inclusion and changing gender roles/ identifications it’s relevance is still apparent as the bridge to mental health widens.
The story- Women aren’t attracted to a man without self confidence so they find one with an abundance of self confidence only to discover he’s angry, aggressive and doesn’t treat her well. He’s the “bad boy” women hate to love. It’s an age old story we’ve been telling for thousands of years and it’s the tale of woe for every self declared, confidence starved nerd. The truth is the bad boy is just as, if not more insecure than the nerd. He hides all that shame under billowing piles of ego so really there are no bad boys or nerds just insecure men with varied coping mechanisms. So I’d like to point out why this cycle of suffering isn’t really anyone’s fault and how we get off the hamster wheel.
Men are often touted as having a hard wire in their brain to protect and provide. Well women have a similarly corresponding hardwire as it relates to choosing a man that can adequately do that. For some women that translates to your standard gold digger finding a partner that can financially care for her. While all are not that shallow, every man loving woman subconsciously is looking for weak spots in his self confidence. Insecurity means he might hesitate or fail to engage when it comes to protecting and providing. That need for survival out weighs our need for vulnerability and intimacy. Sure we all eventually admit that we really want a man that can be vulnerable and share his feelings but most men feel that leads to his ego being chewed up and spit on the floor. What women REALLY want is a man secure enough to be confident AND vulnerable. But do they hold themselves to the same standard?
As human beings we all have insecurities. Women want to talk them out- they know giving a wound air helps it heal. Men want to move past them hoping they’ll eventually die buried alive- they know you should keep a wound covered. These are generalized coping mechanisms for our caveman instincts and neither of them are wrong but balance is what we need to aim for.
So if men don’t want to appear weak and women can’t help but notice their weakness how do we get really connected and intimate? I hope you weren’t expecting an easy answer.
We see and hear the story we’ve been telling ourselves and choose to change it. We heal the insecurities and decide to give our partners enough of a break to work on their own. More often than not the issues that bother us the most are a mirror reflection of what we don’t like in ourselves.
Additionally we can set some boundaries including what is allowed instead of just what isn’t allowed, giving you power over your own life. When we give our partner leeway within our boundaries we won’t get as resentful since it was our choice.
If you’re looking for a man, recognize that he won’t change except in that your love and support can help his confidence grow, bringing out his best. The level of which you are turned off by insecurity is the same level of insecurity you have to heal. Work on your own self confidence, healing your insecurities means you don’t have to talk about them all the time. P.S. if he wants to talk about it he will.
If you’re looking for a woman, work on your self esteem rather than your ego. There is a difference between vulnerability and weakness and it’s huge. Heal from your emotional wounds rather than ignoring them. And remember that women aren’t generally trying to criticize or rip your dignity to shreds. I believe deep down their purpose is to give air to the wounds you’ve been keeping covered. A wound really needs both. Once you’ve been in a relationship for a long time most women see vulnerability as intimacy rather than weakness. That takes a period of trust building beyond what is required for physical intimacy these days.
If we continue to heal and balance the generations of shame and emotional turbulence I believe we’ll alter our brain chemistry enough that we won’t have this caveman response any more. Only time will tell.